The Weekend!!

Wahoooo!!

Whats all the commotion about?, you may ask! Well today I’m off to see the wizard the wonderful wizard of Oz! Ok, I’m not really going to see the Wizard, but I’m going on a little road trip over the hill!

Where you may ask? Ok, ok to the point! This weekend I will be spending it in San Jose and San Francisco. For those of you that don’t know, I haven’t been there for almost two years, meaning that it’s been a while since I have seen my friends and my church. Today my journey should begin early, driving for the very first time, alone, in my car, over the hill. I feel so adventurous! So pray that my car and I make it there safely!

Once I arrive I already have a breakfast date! Oh, with who you may ask! Well, his name is M and he was my junior prom date! So I am really excited about seeing him! Nervous as well..

Later through the day, I will be catching up with other friends and staying over at my friend J’s place. Saturday morning J and I have a get-a-way weekend planned! We are going to San Francisco, going on the Ferry, staying at a beautiful hotel, and just have some girl fun! Sunday morning we will be heading back to San Jose for the wonderful church service at Jubilee, where she also attends. I am really thrilled about this!

 

May the journey begin!

 

Have a nice weekend everyone!

Sitting, Waiting, Wishing… For my grades to post!

I have been going nuts! The spring semester is over!  No more to worry about…

 

WRONG!

Now the dreadful wait of the infamous grades! I already know the results of one class… shameful to say it’s a… B average. Oh well, needless to say I passed. Now for the math section! Still waiting to see what I scored! God willing all went groovy for the final and I hopefully passed the class!

Meanwhile I check every few minutes to see of the teachers have posted up the grades!!

Self Relfection- Exposed

It’s true what a friend said to me a few months ago… that my flaws over-shadow the real me.

With tears in my eyes, I have realized this is the sad truth. I read something earlier that may or may not be about me, but made me open my eyes more. Yeah, I have many and plenty where that came from. I’m stubborn, hard-headed, hot headed, I speak before I think, and so on. That’s just the beginning! I have less positive and more negative about me. I’m pessimistic at times, I am also a realist, a bit political as well. I am too sarcastic, and its taken the wrong way, maybe just misused. I bump heads and very well may I add, when other people are like me. I say the wrong thing at the wrong time. Or sometimes I just say the wrong thing, period. My big mouth and over active thoughts get me into trouble.

Maybe exposing these flaws about myself will help me think before I speak. This is not as embarrassing as I thought it would be when I first thought I would write this… but then again, who likes their flaws exposed?

It’s awful to know that your flaws affect other people. My actions have and now it’s worthless to ask for forgiveness just because of my “know it all” rep. I may nod in acceptance when corrected about something and though this time I may mean it, it will be worthless for the person receiving the nod. What can I do? First off, think before I speak, or actually not speak. Second, be more open to criticism. Thirdly, be real. Sorry to all those who I have hurt, or to all those whom my “know it all” attitude has just completely annoyed them. I can’t guarantee its over, but there will be less of it.

Verse of the Day

Verse of the Day.

Proverbs 10:12

 Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs.

Just a tough day for me, this verse gave me peace. May it do the same for you.

 

 

 

The Desperate One’s

I see a generation that hungers for attention. A generation that cries out in actions for love. I see a generation that is starving for comprehension. This is a desperate generation.

The new generation that is fancied with iPod’s, cell phones, Over $100 pair of shoes, the newest gadget in technology, and the parent’s approval for everything. This all in reality happened in the 1980’s when parents started to work and began to compensate their children with material items. Now it’s quite a trend. This generation had gotten away with too much for far too long!

A few weeks ago, I was outraged due to a situation that was happening in church. Now I see that my reaction was certainly uncalled for, though it made me see what this generation was going through.

I have known a girl of about 11 years old who attends church with her family for many years. Though a few weeks ago she began being really rude. I would say hello to her and she would roll her eyes and just turn away, she did it twice. The first time I said to her, why did you just do that? That is very rude. The second time she did it I said ok. This time telling her mother. I told her mother that her daughter was just acting rude for no reason being and that I was concerned for her behavior. Her mother just laughed it off, saying oh come on you know how my daughter is, she probably didn’t mean it anyway. I was surprised her mother wasn’t concerned to correct her daughter! I was so mad at this woman because she felt her daughter was demonstrating acceptable behavior! Are you kidding me!!? Me being a motherly type of a person, I would have said something to my child! It is because of parents that children and youth care less about respect and morals.

With their actions, this generation is saying “Pay attention to me!! I need a parent! I need love! I want discipline!”. Though we see “I am a rebel! I want to have sex because its fun! I want to do drugs because I have nothing better to do!”. Yes, some excuses just don’t make sense. Some of these kids have parents who not only give them material things but love and understanding, and discipline. Though some parents want to simply give them the money and avoid the parenting… it doesn’t work that way!!

Later though is when the parents are concerned saying that their child doesn’t obey them. It is sad to see that parents are just allowing their kids to do whatever pleases them. Children and youth are not disciplined, therefore have no boundaries.

Lets pray for parents, for I must understand that being a parent is a hard job, but not impossible. Ask God for wisdom and guidance to be able to raise your children to be a mature person who later contributes to society in a positive manner.

 

A Look Inside

Take a look in my heart. What do you see beyond my skin?

I have been battling with that question for a while. There have been times where I tried looking beyond the skin to see the ‘real’ me but failed. I know that I certainly don’t see what God sees. Inside I see a failure, a complainer, a loser, a sinner, replete of flaws, a torn soul, impurity, and so on.

A friend ministered to me a while ago. God spoke through him without a doubt. I had told my friend  how dirty and impure I felt. I also mentioned that I couldn’t forgive myself at all. I knew that God had forgiven me, but I just couldn’t accept it. I felt so ashamed and unworthy of forgiveness. Memories of my acts were now like scars, so permanent and with deep meaning, everyday reminding me. Letting go was hard. Forgetting was even harder.

Genesis 41:51 says;

Joseph named his firstborn Manasseh and said, “It is because God has made me forget all my trouble and my father’s household.”

With that verse the Lord spoke to me… He said for I have already made you forget, for I have made your Manasseh’s come…

Those words my friend spoke with the authority of God broke me down. I realized that all I had to do was allow His forgiveness forget. Although I saw my flaws and negative aspects about myself, God saw nothing but purity.

 I realized that scars are not what make you the person you are. Your outward appearance does not define you. Scars are only stories that you make into testimony when we allow God to heal.

What others see is the reflection of what God has made of you. 

Survey’s

 

Just for fun I decided I would fill out some survey’s and post them up so you can get to know me more!

 The Last’s Survey

Drank alcohol?	Last night in my Coffee
Got kissed?	January
Got your heart broken?	January
Got arrested?	Never
Smoked a cigarette?	Never
Lost someone close to you?	August
Broken a bone?	Never
Got cheated on?	Never
Rode the city bus?	Few months ago
Went to a concert?	Wow… a very long time.
Met someone famous?	I can’t remember
Dyed your hair?	Two months ago
Had sex?	Never
Got your own cell phone?	It’s been a while
Had a boy/girl friend?	Since December
Got the Internet?	A while
Joined Myspace?	Over two years ago
Snuck out of the house?	August
Got your own digital camera?	Don’t have one yet
Got Drunk?	Never

 

All About Me Survey

I Am	Simply Me
I Want	God’s purpose to be fulfilled in my life
I Have	A full tank of gas in my car
I Wish	I lived with my best friend already
I Hate	When people are late
I Fear	Failing in life.
I Hear	The background music playing
I Search	High and low within my heart
I Wonder	What God’s plan is for me
I Regret	I really regret it..
I Love	God
I Ache	for my generation
I Always	Feel there is something missy
I Usually	Have a cup of coffee a day
I Am Not	Obese!
I Dance	When I am happy
I Sing	all the time
I Never	Understood why life is this way
I Rarely	Pass math
I Cry	While watching romance films
I Am Not Always	A happy person
I Lose	At mostly everything
I’m Confused	About cars
I Need	A laptop
I Should	Get another cup of coffee

 

 

First Reaction Survey

Relationships	Can be healthy
Your Last Ex	Nice Guy
Power	Lightening
Food	Bad
Drugs	Bad
The President	Blessed
War	Destructive
Cars	Fast
Gas Prices	High
Halloween	Cute
Religion	Boring
Politics	Fun, controversial
MySpace	Boring
Worst Fear	Failing in life
Marriage	Amazing
Sex	Good
Fashion	Clothes
Brunettes	Cute
Redheads	Pretty
Work	Fun
Football	Playoffs
Animals	Are adorable
Vanilla Ice	Cream?
Porta Potties	Nasty
Pajamas	Comfortable
Pictures	Fun

 

 

Hope you enjoyed!

Cowboyboots

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To my Cowboyboots,

All odds seemed to be against us. Distance, different backgrounds, opposite personalities, and so on seemed to be anti-magnetic. Today marks our five years of friendship. Five years of getting to know you. Five years of having a reliable friend. My dad always says “There are no real friends in this world.”. He is wrong. There are. You have proved it to me.

I remember the first day I met you. Funny to even think about it… You looked at me and saw a rebel. I looked at you and saw a nice girl. We mingled and began our friendship from there, day one. From that day I learned many things. I began to smile in my pictures and you stopped the cussing. We went to church together and shared our secret crushes information. We giggled and laughed all summer long that year. Then we started going to different high schools. Though our schedules conflicted, we remained true. Then distance was our enemy, but we made it into our ally. It has been our ally since.

Though people see me and judge, you are one of the few who see the good, the bad, and the ugly, and loved me the same. You have saw me through my problems and offered your shoulder to cry on.

Late night phone calls and watching the sun rise from the Northwest and the Southwest. You were always there for me friend… I love you so much. The popular saying is true… “God made us best friends, because He knew our mothers couldn’t handle us as sisters”. A true friend you have been. Great advice you have given me. I thank God for such a godly friend He has set for me. Our friendship has kept me grounded to my roots and beliefs.

It’s funny that through this time we have become more synchronized to each other. We think the same as if our souls were connected.

You make me laugh to the point where I pee in my pants. You get me mad when you don’t answer the phone when I need you but soon get over it, cause You’re my Cowboyboots. Whenever I see you, I feel like my twin is in town. My twin-like soul! We sing funny songs and send little random films that we only understand. Thank you! May our friendship endure forever!

Yours Truly,

Bluecheese

(Simplyme)

 

Let Me Be and Let Me Dream

Let me dance in the rain with no worries. Let me run freely through the plain fields. Let me believe I can fly higher than a eagle.

Let me be and let me dream.

When you have been hurt, you don’t dare to dream anymore. When life came to you unexpectedly, you dared no more to look at life at anything more than ordinary. You saw no meaning, you saw no purpose. What if I told you that I have geared you for dreams beyond the one’s you ever had? Would shrug it off like you have before with your own, says God.

God is calling out to you. Yes… You! For far too long you have been putting off all your dreams. Far too long did you put it the gutter and gave up. It’s time to reclaim what God has called you to do.

A life full of purpose and plan.

It’s time for myself to reclaim what is mine. For what is mine comes from my Father, the King, Lord of all Lords.

Mi Educacion- My Education

 

College Spring semester is coming to an end! How sweet is the sound of that!

Most likely finishing off with decent grades and some knowledge, meaning that this semester wasn’t what I expected. Needless to say… it’s done.

I love learning. There is so much more than just sitting and class and listening to the teacher in lecture, but the very essence of knowing how much wiser we are becoming through that. A wise and intelligent person applies their gained knowledge to their life.

During the summer I will be taking a class! Horrible, I know, though it will help me in the long run. Unfortunately for me it’s a math class :/

I pray that God gives me the necessary strength to be able to get through this difficult course.

I will strongly disagree by declaring that college students are always poor. I know that the going gets tough but I know I will be prosperous and in health!