For I am Not Perfect

For I am not perfect.

I am a sinner who has found favor upon the eyes of the Lord.

I am a person who has fallen into the deepest pits and found the light through God.

For I am nothing short of grace and I am everything thanks to God.

I have daily struggles and I fall daily.

My actions are what speak on my behalf and most times it’s not my intention.

I judge others easily though I am worse than them for doing it.

I justify my acts with simple excuses but linger eternally on acts done against me.

I wonder continually about endless possibilities.

I am imperfect yet God still loves me the same.

This is who I am.

Turkey Day Already, Ay?

I gotta admit, time goes by fast! Last time I checked- We were all at the New Years party having fun. Now we are soon to prepare for Thanksgiving. Though this is not the reason why I am writing today’s blog. Just needed a good title! Any-who, I write to you from the deepest part of my heart. Way deep =). I write today with the spirit of appreciation. Then again, maybe this has a little to do with thanksgiving…

I am blessed. I think we’ve covered that in like most of my blogs. Though much of that reason is due to the people that I have in my life. Those friends that help you through the though times, that brother or sister that holds your hand in the darkness, or your spouse that has gone through the good and the bad, do you appreciate them? I can say I do. I can say that thanks to those friends I have become a strong person and that thanks to my family I have become a bit more wiser. I have been through some tough times before and have always had someone’s shoulder to cry on, be it on a friends, family, or my wonderful God.

So today I want to say thank you! Thank you for being there for me. Thank you for simply reading my blog, thank you if you are that shoulder I’ve cried on. Thank you if you are a friend to anyone and has been relient. Thank you for unconditional friendship. I know that you are a way of God saying “I am listening”. May God bless you this week!

Let me ask you this: Have you said thanks to those around you?

Limited?

 

I’ve been thinking lately about how we limit ourselves to certain things that can be beneficiary to not only to us but to others as well, and then at the same time we don’t put a limit to those things that are harmful to us. I am a coffee junkie. I “treat” myself for coffee once in a while. We all know how much Starbucks coffee can cost, even if your purchase the simple lattes. In a week I can “treat” myself from about 1 to 2 times. That can be from eight to ten dollars a week, depending on what I get. With about forty dollars monthly I can easily help a charity, a cause, or a fund, or simply be a blessing to others. I see adds online, at stores, at schools, and magazines, about homeless children, women with cancer, building homes for victims of hurricanes, while I sit and sip my coffee. Writing about this is opening my eyes to what I can be doing to be a blessing to others. I want to make a difference in this world. Though at the moment I don’t have the possibility to go out there and do my part of the movement, I can support others to do it. I don’t exactly have to be a super woman or a rich person but just someone who wants to bless others when in need with the hope that they will see God at the end of the tunnel. Lattes? They can wait. I can either learn how to do them at home or just go without. I know that making small sacrifices like these will pay off in the end, when lives are surrendered to God. Sure beats my Grande, vanilla, extra hot, no foam lattes. I will be looking into different charities and causes and soon be making a decision on where to contribute. I will keep you guys posted on my decision! Makes me realize that I am not limited to being a blessing to the kingdom of God, I can be something small of something great! I am not limited with blessing, God has filled me with overabundant blessing, and therefore as daughter of my Father, the King I am NOT limited. I can be of a blessing to others.

Ask yourself this: Are you limiting yourself to being a blessing to others with the mentality of never having enough? If so, look where the spare change is going to and redirect it to something positive.

Music Covers The Silence

Its just been one of those weeks…

You know, the real quiet kind of week when you happen to only hear the voice of your own thoughts? If you don’t know what I mean, I do! I turn up the music so I won’t have to hear to silence. I hear the others talking in animated voices but they are not talking to me. I find myself talking more and more to God when silence like this consumes me.

I’ve given up on always being the to keep up with the acquaintances, friends, and family. I understand that we all live busy lifestyles but I never allowed that to stop the communication. For example, the relationship that is held with my roommate is zero to none. Though in the beginning I tried to win her over, there was only so much that I could do from my part to have a relationship. I feel the tension has begun to get tenser and tenser. I understand that not everyone thinks alike, that not everyone will get along, but I continue to hope that there might be a possibility that one day a voluntary comment will emerge from her. In the past months I would try to strike up conversations and nothing would come from them. I would volunteer to give her rides and those rides to her destination were quieter than solitude. So I stopped trying. Though we sleep in the same room, no words came from either of us. We would pass by each other and nothing. I would enter a room and silence would fall right before the uncontrollable laughter. So this week before leaving to work I left a little card on her bed saying that I hope she would have a blessed day and a great week. Signed, me. She never told me anything about it. To be honest, yes it bugged me. There is not much I can do, that is for sure now. I just hope things get better.